k. Sonin
I told you I was on fire
NML023

Track List:

1. half beer bottle
2. washed
3. turn me over
4. rise
5. sutured
6. scotch
7. tell me

About: released early 2002. Recorded in Dave’s apartment while i was homeless and sleeping on his couch. I couldve sold my digital 8 track recorder, my bass and my guitar to rent my own apartment but then I wouldn’t have made this mess.

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Lyrics

half beer bottle – spotted mind over and over closer in vitro nothing moves same crass decision over and over transport travelling trains are my life you fucking cunt completeness comes at the end of a bottle the end of a tunnel and half a bottle of beer left

washed – not alone but all too evident your dependence it washed away in the blood and the rain and the mudflow through your toes felt good until you realized it was a snake ‘it fell onto the floor and cut your feet into little bright pieces’ they washed away in the puddles you jumped through to achieve desperation it was never this gimmicky before you just wanted something free and pretty

turn me over – i thought on this night of all nights i’d mind but i can’t get my legs to start moving again a minimum of colored lights won’t bring me back this time no come back next week roll me over turn me out lighted in a room with six walls please don’t tell me what i need i need everyone to stop telling me and just do what i say goddamit of your new lover i need someone to tell me that i look like shit so i can complete the line but we all look like shit here when will you realize it was only you youve been right here swallowing and changing i saw it first so unhappy now

rise – what I’m saying is that im the only one and i know it’s wrong to believe swear it’s real in my fist of intelligence spackled with tastes of reality the only honesty here in this tune count the numbers off read them to me like we’re still love like we’re shitfaced together and trying to repress our feelings like we’ve been buried side by side and i watched you rise

sutured – i called your name they sowed me up and put me back on the streets again

scotch – now that i’ve had time i want again feelings like saw it on tv was alone turned it off turn it off couldn’t get on without you no reason to propose only one thing think it’s funny but it can’t possibly matter to you

tell me – losing faith again tell me again why i shouldn’t feel the way i do tell me what i have a right to feel tell me why i need to learn to deal with dissappointment and not believe in something beyond i’ve been played and molested too many times by the people who were trying to save me to believe them i’ve been branded a sinner by nihilists i used to care as much as you because i was able to now im to fucking old and too fucking tired that will never stop haunting me no matter what drugs im on so tell me where i need to go and how to stop this longing this ‘waiting in the fire’ nothing i can do to please you any longer and if i tell you that i’m dying you’d tell me that you hear it every night i’m dying.